imagine

so imagine how it feels. spending 6 years practically living life together. from being a target of anxiety to a trustworthy friend. hearing a sentence repeatedly, 'its alrite as long as you go with asti'. meeting her more than eyeballing my folks. phoning her until the bill got multiplied. pouring countless tears, sharing endless list of secrets. forwarding, backwarding, switching up, turning down her tunes so many time i find it hard to forget her playlist. keeping her company as she turn the car around while endangering the existence of my father's petunias. losing track of who debt who the last. not to mention the number.

correcting : literally living life together.

sharing so much firsts, bests, craziests moments ever, kinda makes her the only living thing who gets my story.

letting a bf go, crying for 3mnths. letting you go, not a chance. i'll never forgive myself breaking up this friendship with you.

thank you so much for everything.

*i wonder why it feels like there's a hole in my heart?