my habit after an ugly tearful day is to suck it up and socialize. seek for something(one) that'll make me laugh (if i'm lucky enough), or force me a smile. now on super bad day when fortuna's being a total bitch, she'll mess any attempts i make to heal. since i have no patience at all, when these following events occur, i'll vanish.
for i'll hurt too many if i do force myself to show up.
yes, just me being so fucking stubborn. please do forgive.

"ga capek nangis? .........yaudah ketawa. life's that simple when you let it (be)"
kalo bisa aku juga mau.